My path too. It was later that I could rationalize my attraction to dick if it belonged to a trans woman!

Although I engaged in mutual cocksucking and sexual crossdressing in college, I mostly went straight after marriage. Only exception for many years was cocks in gay porn for masturbation, and shemale porn.
A fairly recent experience with cock though was during business travel to Vegas. I spent a weekend with a young dancer. His cock was framed by a bra and panties, garter belt and nylons, and was very suckable. Like old times.

i to like shemales especially traps n femboys i tend to think bout cock alot girlcock well just cock in general

Glad you admit that you are not straight.

Although Im not sure why I care so much about what a complete stranger identifies as.

For me its TS / Shemales that grab my attention. Not interested in sex with a guy but a ts with the feminine body and face, lovley tits and then the bonus cock well....

retired 5 years ago and thought with that out of the way everything would be gangbusters with both sexes but hasn't been that way ,a little thing called covid got in the way too

Exactly my view!

Oh yeah, same for me!

as i got older i found i have very strong bi side like to look at cocks think more about cock than pussy now i watch lot of bi
porn

Yah...same here...I think it's just that guys are Always ready...where often women aren't interested

Man...I feel your pain. I retired around the same time as you. I thought the same as you. I thought it was going to be like it was in the early days but the wife (soon-to-be-the-ex-wife) just wasn't interested anymore. Trying to hook up with side gals was made damn near impossible by C19 and the slow return to normalcy didn't help either. Now, here I am chatting on jack sites and saving up for a 25" Anastasia because women out there are either headcases, social meida whores or too preoccupied with their OF "career" to do anything other than sit in front of their laptops. What's a retiree supposed to do?

That's the cold hard truth. "women aren't interested." My soon to be ex-wife told me that she wanted me to spend more time "talking to her, listening to her and enticing her emotions." WTF?!? Men do all that shit in order to GET MARRIED...when you're already married we've proven that we give a shit. We've proven that we're in it for the long haul. Do I have to pretend like every fucking time is the first time? Jesus...who has time for that shit! I wanted wham, bam, thank you ma'am sex and she wanted romantic bullshit and hours of foreplay. She pulled the rip cord and now I'm headed towards solitude. Fuckin' women...they're ALL fucked in the head.

Even if you do find a sex meetup with a woman, it still comes with a long list of don'ts. Alawys at the top of the don't list is no oral orgasms. With men, it is the exact point of a hookup. Giving head is the point anyway and there's no beating around the bush or screwing around to get there.

For Me it started with Me wanting to Suck My Own Cock. When I was about 20 and had just moved out of My parents house and got My own apartment. I now had more privacy than I ever had. So it was easy to spend as much time as I wanted Jerking Off. So I had to try to Suck My own Cock. I put My back up against the wall, kind of a head stand, with My knees on My ears. I dont have a long Cock so I was about 5 inches too short. Eventually I would edge Myself to the brink, then quickly take the back upside down position with My mouth wide open. Then I would finish My self off, and Cum into My Own Mouth. The first time I Came in My own mouth was a mind blower. The Climax was incredible. I had a close up view as I slowly stroked My Cock to Orgasm. My head was spinning more intense than ever before. Suddenly My Balls exploded, shooting 4 or five jets of thick pearly Sperm into My open Mouth. One jet shot onto My upper Lip. So now I could See, Smell and Taste the Sperm that I just shot into My Own Mouth. I slid down the wall, so I was laying spread out on the bed. I lay there for several minutes, trembling with My mind spinning. I left the Sperm on My Nose so I could continue to sniff its musky scent, as I slowly savored the slippery flavor of the Sperm in My mouth. That was an incredible experience that I would repeat hundreds of times over My lifetime. To Suck another Mans Cock eventually became inevitable.
So as I reached about 50, I began to feel the need to Suck another Mans Cock. Eventually I found the opportunity one late night, in an Adult book store Video arcade. I entered the booth, quickly dropped to My knees and took His thick Boner into My mouth. He had been jerking, so it didn't take long. His body was tense and trembling. Suddenly His hands grabbed the back of My head, as He thrust His hips forward. Then with a groan, His Cock exploded in My mouth. The experience was incredible. His entire body trembled and jerked as He continued to pump loads of thick hot Sperm into My mouth. It was such an incredible experience that I actually Came in My pants with no touch. After that nasty experience, I knew I wanted to secretly Suck Cock.
I don't get to do it very often. I am always trying to find a secret Cock to Suck off. Some day I hope to find a College jock or two to Secretly Suck Off. Donate a fresh load to a local Grandpa.