I've had an online JO bud for 15+ years. Never met in person but have a chance to in April. those that have met, do you ever feel guilty after? I'm married and fear the guilt would be overwhelming.

Not even a little bit.

My wife stopped sex about 15 or so years ago. She doesn't know I'm bi and like to cross dress and even before she stopped sex, would not satisfy my needs in full. I've met up with a few guys in person and have had a few online encounters. There's a little bit of guilt, but I justify it by considering it a part of my life that my wife is not interested in. Yes, I make sure that my activities are safe so I don't catch any little nasties and also make sure that it remains completely discreet.