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twizted77 Skilled Jackinchatter

736 posts since 2013-06-17
45 year old curious male from Kentucky
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I guess I would say I am bi curious. I am not attracted to men at all, but I do find cocks strangely exciting. I jerk off to shemale porn regularly, and when I am in the mood I will watch some gay porn. But it isn't two guys together that really gets me off, it's fantasizing about being the guy on bottom. My entire life i have been the dominant male. From being the captain of two sports teams in high school, to being the first ever two time president of my fraternity to being the youngest boss in the history of my company, it's the hand I was dealt. I have faced the same issue in the bedroom. Every woman I have ever dated including my wife have expected and forced me into being dominant. I am 6'1" and 250 lbs. I am built to be the dom, but all I want is to be sub. Would love a woman who would facesit me or strapon fuck me. When it comes to gay porn, it's that idea of another man showing his dominance over me by ass fuckinh me that gets me so horny. Mmmmmm. Have tried to talk my wife into at least face sitting, but it makes her "uncomfortable". So I am here in this closet jerking off.
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736 posts since 2013-06-17
45 year old curious male from Kentucky
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Nobody else been in that situation?
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francesCD Skilled Jackinchatter

871 posts since 2016-03-29
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I was similar until I started crossdressing. Hard to be dom when your dressed as a frenchmaid. My wife likes to be dom but won't do face sitting either, though she doesn't mind shoving things up my asshole.
I did get her to piss on me after a lot of persuassion.
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London2london3 Novice Jackinchatter

6 posts since 2017-06-29
40 year old heterosexual male from SW London, UK
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I feel like I am in a very similar situation.

I grew up in the southern US where it is just abnormal to be anything but an alpha male. I played sports, work out, and have always been very confident and masculine. But this translates into me meeting submissive women. And in bed I do not always want to be the dominant one. My wife is the same actually... very confident personality but wanting to be more submissive in bed. The older we get (only 33) and the more we communicate, the more we both realise that we want the other to be the dominant one.

Sometimes I enjoy this role. When I am working out regularly and getting enough rest I feel very masculine. It helps if my wife has also been keeping in shape as she is petite but can gain weight in her waiste area if she doesn't watch her diet.

She loves to be face fucked and take me from behind and many times this is exactly what I want, to put my hands around her head or waist and just dominate her.

But other times I want to be the one getting face fucked (by her) and have her bending me over. I would definitely be into anything she wanted to try, but she is just not that person.

Lately I've wanted to share pics of her and meet men in real life... men with larger cocks who are the alpha male types I think she would enjoy. I'd let another man fuck her if she would.

And like OP I've seen gay as she male porn and fanticized about being the sub. It's not the men I'm attracted to though, it's the submission. The position of the bottom and how turned on the dominant male gets. Somehow another man getting hard for me really turns me on in a way that a woman getting wet does not.

I'm rambling, it's hard to explaIn...
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London2london3 Novice Jackinchatter

6 posts since 2017-06-29
40 year old heterosexual male from SW London, UK
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I guess I should add that I have always had issues with my body. I am athletic and toned and if I eat and sleep enough and workout then I can gain muscle fast. But with a toddler and a demanding job I often weigh in at 160 and just feel skinny.

I think my perception of myself has a lot to do with me wanting to either submit or be the man my wife wants.

I've always thought if I was 180-200 and in shape I'd feel more more masculine and confident with all women, not just my wife, but judging by OP comments that might not make a difference.
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twizted77 Skilled Jackinchatter

736 posts since 2013-06-17
45 year old curious male from Kentucky
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London2london3 said:
I feel like I am in a very similar situation.

I grew up in the southern US where it is just abnormal to be anything but an alpha male. I played sports, work out, and have always been very confident and masculine. But this translates into me meeting submissive women. And in bed I do not always want to be the dominant one. My wife is the same actually... very confident personality but wanting to be more submissive in bed. The older we get (only 33) and the more we communicate, the more we both realise that we want the other to be the dominant one.

Sometimes I enjoy this role. When I am working out regularly and getting enough rest I feel very masculine. It helps if my wife has also been keeping in shape as she is petite but can gain weight in her waiste area if she doesn't watch her diet.

She loves to be face fucked and take me from behind and many times this is exactly what I want, to put my hands around her head or waist and just dominate her.

But other times I want to be the one getting face fucked (by her) and have her bending me over. I would definitely be into anything she wanted to try, but she is just not that person.

Lately I've wanted to share pics of her and meet men in real life... men with larger cocks who are the alpha male types I think she would enjoy. I'd let another man fuck her if she would.

And like OP I've seen gay as she male porn and fanticized about being the sub. It's not the men I'm attracted to though, it's the submission. The position of the bottom and how turned on the dominant male gets. Somehow another man getting hard for me really turns me on in a way that a woman getting wet does not.

I'm rambling, it's hard to explaIn...


Glad to see I am not alone. I am just the same. Love watching gay porn and fantasizing about being the bottom. Love watching shemale solo porn or shemale porn where she fucks the guy. Love shoving things up my ass, like my wife's dildo, but she gets mad at the suggestion that she try anything remotely homosexual with me. But God I cum sooooooo hard.

I love my wife, which is why I have not tried hooking up with some random guy. If I was single, I probably would.
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736 posts since 2013-06-17
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francesCD said:
I was similar until I started crossdressing. Hard to be dom when your dressed as a frenchmaid. My wife likes to be dom but won't do face sitting either, though she doesn't mind shoving things up my asshole.
I did get her to piss on me after a lot of persuassion.


Would love to try it. I do around the house sometimes when the wife is out of town. My problem is my wife would leave me if she knew, and I can't exactly pass as a woman. At 6 foot 1 inch and 250 lbs, I am built like an American football player.
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736 posts since 2013-06-17
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Have you guys always known you were sub, or is it a recent discovery? I have always had some fantasies, but it wasn't until I was 21 and in college I knew for sure. Dated a very cute, small submissive girl. One night she got drunk and became a beast. First girl to face sitting me and made me worship her ass and pussy. Made me wear her roommate's panties, and finger fucked me while I sniffed her's and beat off. She even took Polaroids of her fingering my ass. The next day she broke up with be because she "isn't into that stuff." About a year later I hooked up with the roommate one night and she did the same thing minus the pics. Eventually told me my ex had showed the Polaroids to all of her friends. Never fucked the roomie, but jerked off three times in her panties while she fingered me. Best two nights of my life, and my only gay/bi experiences.
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